Is the 24th of April a good day to give birth?

Hehe I know this post is 2days late, coz its not the 24th of April today, but STILL. It is absolutely necessary.

=)

I'm just wondering if its a coincidence that so many humans birthday fall on this day.

Must be auspicious day dy wan. Abo why got so many. No kidding man.

I know 3ppl, and then a friend's friend and a friend's friend's friend and then a friend's father etc... all of them, their special day falls on this day.

So yes.

1. PEI WEN, my dearest baby sister turned 14!

Heheh OK she's a baby no more, but in my heart she always will be. =)

2. PARAN ( our Dentistry gang member ) turned 21! =)

3. Father Michael Cheah, who used to be our church parish priest's special day is on this day too!

OK this may all sound very lame. And random. But STILL, I never happened to know of so many people who share the same birth date!

HAHA and randomness is nothing new to me, as you guys should know. =)

OH OH. I have a sudden urge to express MY UTMOST NEED to see the Phantom of the Opera. No matter WHAT. OMG the songs are to DIE for.

I love everything about theatres, the songs, the actors, the props. Its almost like a dream come true.

I love concerts too. OMG the feeling of hearing the band you ADORE sing live, is overwhelming.

=) *BIG smile*

But for now, I'm stranded with my biomaterials urghyuck. I NEED TO STUDYY!

*It helps to daydream alittle ( actually ALOT )*

~sighs~

Reading 'Captivating' tonight in the quietness of my room, struck my heart in a way that could not be explained.

Part of the reason women are so tired is because we are spending so much energy trying to 'keep it together'. So much energy devoted to suppressing the pain and keeping a good appearance.

" I am going to harden my heart."

" I'm gonna swallow my tears."

This is driven by fear that the pain will overwhelm us. Its an understandable fear- but it is no more true than the fear we had of the dark as children.

Let the tears come. Get alone, get to your car or your bedroom or the shower and let the tears come. It is the only thing to do for your woundedness. Allow yourself to feel again. And you will feel many things.


I feel as though I can't cry anymore. No more tears left? No grief, no worries, life is going on really well there's nothing to cry about?

Or is there pain, somewhere deep within me, the pain of rejection, betrayal and a lost of trust? All buried deep, so that I won't FEEL?

But there's always this pressing feeling in the heart with all these burdens. Nothing that comforts, nothing to soothe. No tears left.

I want to be able to cry as freely as I was able to not so long ago.

Its confusing, to grow up, being told that crying is not for big girls, only babies cry.
No one likes to see you cry. No one wants to deal with your sorrow. No one cares for your tears.

And then there are people who come to you and say, crying does NOT do anything for you. It just makes you look weak. And people call you EMO. Some say you cry for sympathy.

So I made myself believe, that this is all true.


Not allowing yourself to grieve over a relationship lost, a friendship broken, a family member on the verge of sinking into the pits, the loss of a loved one, is an accumulated feeling.

Not allowing yourself to cry over things that matter much to you, is a good first line of defence.
If this can't hurt me, nothing else will.

But when the lava of this volcano accumulates beyond its capacity, its bound to explode.

Sooner or later.

" Love is always patient and kind; it is never jealous.

Love is never boastful or conceited; it is never rude or selfish; it does not take offence, and is not resentful.

Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins but delights in the truth;

It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope and to endure whatever that comes. "

( Corinthians 13: 4-7 )


Call me an optimist hopeless romantic whatever, but I feel LOVE cannot be explained in a better way. =)

xxx


Biomaterials is super YUCK.

But it helps to have encouragement from someone before lectures to NOT fall asleep! Thank you, someone. =)



I think I have this hopeless crush on a tutor. To the extent when he explain stuff nothing seems to get into my big balloon-empty head.

NOOOOOOOOOO.

Hahaha I'm JUST JOKING OK. Don't tell people, later i SHY. *blush*



OK OK I'll stop. =)




PS.No scandal nothing whatsoever OK. I'm just feeling abit mushy-wushy this evening. =)

Tata!