Life Isn't Always Easy

Life can be unfair at times
When you must maintain faith
And NEVER let go

It is especially during the difficult times
That you must live your life
To its fullest potential
Those are the times to triumph
over circumstances
With hope and courage

Life isn't always easy
But if you keep going and persevere
To the very best of your ability
You will gain strength to manage
The new challenges ahead.

Each goal that you reach
Is another important step forward.

Believe that there are
bright and wonderful days
Ahead for you and you will find them.


I wrote this almost 10 years ago, when I was struggling in college, facing a new environment.

One never stops learning about and experiencing the selfish ways of the human heart.

One also realises, change only comes from within the person. It only happens if the heart is willing to humbly reflect and retrospect the selfishness which clouds all ability to think rationally and treat a fellow human being with the respect anyone deserves.

Regardless of the position or power one holds, or is desperately fighting to achieve.

For no matter how much glory one feels one has, in every footstep that one takes, there is only loneliness in this human heart.

I wish you all the very best. May you find that humility in you, one day.

Yes. Hello again, blog. After a whole year. :)

OMG IT HAS BEEN A YEAR (MORE, ACTUALLY) SINCE I EVER HAD THE MOJO TO DROP A LINE IN THIS 'NOT-SO-PRIVATE' BLOG OF MINE!

..and the enlightenment to do 'something' about it did not come by sitting under a coconut tree (since I am HOME now and there are plenty of those ^^)... it came because of the sudden fear of losing precious pictures of mine since I ALMOST SINGLE HANDED-ly KO-ed my own HARDDRIVE the other day by stupidly dropping it to the floor and almost smashing the insides into mush.

Yes, I am a butter-fingered dentist. :) Heh.

England has been a year away now.. but memories still stay fresh in my mind :) My last days in Manchester was spent visiting lovely Lucy and her family in the Peak district, near a little quaint very English town called Buxton.

I am happy to be in the comforts of home, with weather more suitable for a warm blooded mammal like myself :) and food aplenty more suitable for my tastebuds, not forgetting the company of my beloved family.

However there are days where I still miss much about the country I called home for 5 years of my life.

Lucy, thank you for inviting me to your lovely home countless times.. it was a precious experience that no money can buy :)

Lu's granny :)

Lu's parents.. who are the kindest hosts :) I won't forget my first trip to Sainsbury with them :) Thank you for trying your best to make me feel at home, in the midst of my homesickness especially in my first few days in England :)

and little Alex! :) I will always remember how you asked me so innocently when you were much younger.. ''Why is your hair black?'' ''Why are your eyes so small?'' ''What colour are your eyes?''

Now you are a talented young footballer, and I am so proud of you :)

kind and gentle pip


...and the beautiful peak district surrounding this beautiful English family that I was so privileged to get to know :)

ah, this will be the place I 'melepaskan rindu'.. the pictures does make me long to go back.. even just for a day.

But I am grateful nevertherless. For I am blessed with these experiences. :) Thank you, Jesus.

Quarter of a century old.. the older you are, the wiser?

the adage.. doesn't seem to apply to me. I don't feel the least bit wiser. But I guess being wiser is not a 'feeling', its the outlook and the way you look at things when it happens, also the way you deal with adversities when it comes knocking on your door.

Adversities has been always knocking on my door alright, and I forsee more to come.. when I actually start working. REAL WORLD, peilian. No more protective doors.. no more safe roof under my parents watchful eyes..:)

I miss my friends, I miss Manchester, I miss him.

But its nice to know I am still remembered, with the many messages and cards that came through the post :)

The postman is now my favouritest person.. for he brings a little scribbling now and again, from my friends afar :)

Thank you, everyone :) for the kind wishes and thoughtful cards :)

Paran, no in case you forgot.. its not MR. hahaha nevertherless when I saw 'Mr' on the address I knew right away it was you. :)

And yes, its very thoughtful of you.. to pick another card up just bcoz u forgot the envelope for the first one! hahahaha it really made me laugh out loud :) :) :)

although, dear paran, no matter how I am in absolute denial about my age.. 21 is VERY kind :) hahahah


Thank youu yipei!! :) my crazy partner in crime.. I really miss youu :) our postclinicstressbingeeating disorder, cooking sessions, etcetc. the list is endless.you are family to me :) and will always be :)

Nguster! such a thoughtful photoframe, thank you for making the effort to put it together :) I miss you and pp and our birthday trips to visit each other.. being back in Malaysia has its disadvantages I guess, travelling around is not as easy anymore. Nevertherless :) I want you to know its the same for me.. my hand is there for you whenever you need help :) *huggss* thank you for being such a wonderful friend all these years :) I am ever so grateful for you and pp :)

Finally Mr A :) your gifts are plentiful, I couldnt be more blessed :) but most of all thank you for the gift of your heart :)


Eat, pray, love :) recommended read to all girls! I savoured every word, plenty of thoughts to take home... well done Elizabeth Gilbert!! :)

As I said, nothing could have rreplaced your presence on my special day :) but i've learnt how to count my blessings :) and savour each day as it goes by. :)

plus I have my tortoise to keep me company until you return :)


Mei Lin, thank you!! for thoughtfully bringing me gifts and visiting me in my humble home in BM for a few days :) it was truly nice to see you again after so many years :)

Karinita, your long email and your prayers truly touched me to the point of tears :) thank you for always seeing the best in me, and for constantly remembering me in your prayers. I miss you, and yes, it feels really strange.. to have left the country.. not knowing when I will be back again.
But I know, with God's grace, we will meet again. :)

So many people to thank, so many friends that have blessed my life in the past 25years. Thank you,all :) Most importantly, thank You, Lord. :)



Right now I am still growing mushrooms in plentifold. Hahah not complaining though, its nice to have time to do the things I want to do.
FINALLY i have forced myself through completing this blogpost! :) hahaha very difficult to find the mojo in these days of kemalasan tahap maksimum :)

ciao!!