Chatting with Miss Obviously-Innocent-But-In-Denial Teh Yi Pei a few minutes ago reminded me of something that made us dentistry people crack up like nobody's business, and I FIND IT ABSOLUTELY NECESSARY TO RECORD THIS DOWN.

It is not every day that you meet a certain someone who is innocent to this level, that when she wrote this..

... she didn't realise what she 'potentially' could be going on about.

In case you guys can't see what it says ( the picture is still abit blur I'm afraid, Rach n I tried our very best )

Its a birthday message from Yipei to Paran, which says,

" A year older, and INCH LONGER.

How long is it gonna be next year? "

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I LAUGHED MY ASS OFF. SO DID THE REST.

To spare the poor girl the continous agony that we put her through that night, and also after having my fair share of laughter.. I shall help her JUSTIFY.

IT's PARAN's BEARD/GOATIE/MOUSTACHE she's talking about OK! DON't GO THINK ALL SORTS. NAUGHTY, NAUGHTY.

*naughty me too * heheh.

I am STILL LAUGHING now I can't seem to stop.

Its just one of those precious moments, that when you think back, it still amuses you.

And thank you, Yipei, for that! =)

Is the 24th of April a good day to give birth?

Hehe I know this post is 2days late, coz its not the 24th of April today, but STILL. It is absolutely necessary.

=)

I'm just wondering if its a coincidence that so many humans birthday fall on this day.

Must be auspicious day dy wan. Abo why got so many. No kidding man.

I know 3ppl, and then a friend's friend and a friend's friend's friend and then a friend's father etc... all of them, their special day falls on this day.

So yes.

1. PEI WEN, my dearest baby sister turned 14!

Heheh OK she's a baby no more, but in my heart she always will be. =)

2. PARAN ( our Dentistry gang member ) turned 21! =)

3. Father Michael Cheah, who used to be our church parish priest's special day is on this day too!

OK this may all sound very lame. And random. But STILL, I never happened to know of so many people who share the same birth date!

HAHA and randomness is nothing new to me, as you guys should know. =)

OH OH. I have a sudden urge to express MY UTMOST NEED to see the Phantom of the Opera. No matter WHAT. OMG the songs are to DIE for.

I love everything about theatres, the songs, the actors, the props. Its almost like a dream come true.

I love concerts too. OMG the feeling of hearing the band you ADORE sing live, is overwhelming.

=) *BIG smile*

But for now, I'm stranded with my biomaterials urghyuck. I NEED TO STUDYY!

*It helps to daydream alittle ( actually ALOT )*

~sighs~

Reading 'Captivating' tonight in the quietness of my room, struck my heart in a way that could not be explained.

Part of the reason women are so tired is because we are spending so much energy trying to 'keep it together'. So much energy devoted to suppressing the pain and keeping a good appearance.

" I am going to harden my heart."

" I'm gonna swallow my tears."

This is driven by fear that the pain will overwhelm us. Its an understandable fear- but it is no more true than the fear we had of the dark as children.

Let the tears come. Get alone, get to your car or your bedroom or the shower and let the tears come. It is the only thing to do for your woundedness. Allow yourself to feel again. And you will feel many things.


I feel as though I can't cry anymore. No more tears left? No grief, no worries, life is going on really well there's nothing to cry about?

Or is there pain, somewhere deep within me, the pain of rejection, betrayal and a lost of trust? All buried deep, so that I won't FEEL?

But there's always this pressing feeling in the heart with all these burdens. Nothing that comforts, nothing to soothe. No tears left.

I want to be able to cry as freely as I was able to not so long ago.

Its confusing, to grow up, being told that crying is not for big girls, only babies cry.
No one likes to see you cry. No one wants to deal with your sorrow. No one cares for your tears.

And then there are people who come to you and say, crying does NOT do anything for you. It just makes you look weak. And people call you EMO. Some say you cry for sympathy.

So I made myself believe, that this is all true.


Not allowing yourself to grieve over a relationship lost, a friendship broken, a family member on the verge of sinking into the pits, the loss of a loved one, is an accumulated feeling.

Not allowing yourself to cry over things that matter much to you, is a good first line of defence.
If this can't hurt me, nothing else will.

But when the lava of this volcano accumulates beyond its capacity, its bound to explode.

Sooner or later.

" Love is always patient and kind; it is never jealous.

Love is never boastful or conceited; it is never rude or selfish; it does not take offence, and is not resentful.

Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins but delights in the truth;

It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope and to endure whatever that comes. "

( Corinthians 13: 4-7 )


Call me an optimist hopeless romantic whatever, but I feel LOVE cannot be explained in a better way. =)

xxx


Biomaterials is super YUCK.

But it helps to have encouragement from someone before lectures to NOT fall asleep! Thank you, someone. =)



I think I have this hopeless crush on a tutor. To the extent when he explain stuff nothing seems to get into my big balloon-empty head.

NOOOOOOOOOO.

Hahaha I'm JUST JOKING OK. Don't tell people, later i SHY. *blush*



OK OK I'll stop. =)




PS.No scandal nothing whatsoever OK. I'm just feeling abit mushy-wushy this evening. =)

Tata!

My very FIRST betting experience.

Today after badminton Alex said, "Lets go to Ladbrokes. Its the Grand National today."


Hahaha I SWEAR I didnt know what was the Grand National. Neither did I know what kind of business Ladbrokes did.

Alex had patiently explained to Francisco and I, the significance of this horse race to the English people.

( HAHAHA this is not ALEX's EXPLANATION lar, I wiki-ed it. =) )
The Grand National (known as the John Smith's Grand National for sponsorship reasons) is the most valuable National Hunt horse race in the world. It is the biggest betting race in the world, and is popular amongst many people who do not normally watch or bet on horse racing at other times of the year. It is also one of the most controversial, due to the high profile given to injuries and fatalities suffered by the participating horses. It has been targeted by animal rights groups who have campaigned to have it banned. One rider has also died as a result of injuries sustained in the race.


So HOW DID I CHOOSE MY HORSE?

Hahahaha I knew NUTS about betting. Never watched a horse race in my entire life before.

So I decided I'll choose according to which name catches my attention most.

First name that caught my attention; was SNOWY MORNING. There were others that made me want to burst out laughing, like Comply Or Die, Idle Talk, In The High Grass, No Full, Tumbling Dice, King John's Castle and Vodka Bleu. Mind you, THESE ARE NAMES OF HORSES.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I wonder if Comply Or Die has that kind of attitude, Idle Talk enjoys yakking idly on a hot summer afternoon with his horse buddies, No Full never felt full, In The High Grass likes tall uncut grass, or Vodka Bleu actually orders vodka bleu ONLY on a night out?

SO yes. I started to feel the connection with Snowy Morning already. He just sounds so, so, pretty. A morning with snow, ahhhhhhhh perfecto.


HAHA I didnt want to waste money on something that I most probably would not get back, but wanted to have some fun still.
So I betted 50p each-way on my horse. Meaning that if my horse wins 1st,2nd, 3rd, or 4th I will win some money.

Waited for 4.15pm , and tuned in to BBC online. OMG when my horse was leading at 2nd place I was super duper excited you have no idea. TYPED FURIOUSLY on msn whilst watching and my friends thought I went abit crazy.

AND GUESS WHAT? I WON 3rd PLACE!!! HAHAHAHAHA I won 3pounds!

Hmmm what can you buy with 3 pounds u say?

Hahaha a subway meal set, mcD? Or a trip to the cinema! Hahaha but it wasnt about how much I won, its just the excitement of watching it all, and cheering my lovely Snowy Morning on, thats the amazing part of the experience.

I want to go to the GRAND NATIONALs next year! Itll be fun-ner to see the horses race live, and hear the loud hooves thundering the grounds, and crowds cheering. =)

I am so very tired now. But it was a super exciting day. =) Went to watch Vantage Point this evening, and I was literally at the edge of my seat because it was full of suspense. It was really quite good though! =)

SNOWY MORNING, YOU ROCK! ( hmmm I wonder how do you say that in Horse language )

Its ironic how in one night a person's emotions can be HIGH and LOW, then HIGH, then LOW again.

Its funny how much people can disappoint, so much to the point of destruction.

Its amusing how you can tell yourself over and over again there is hope, but feel like one day there is so much to look forward to, and another, none whatsoever.

Its humorous to want so much of something, but none of the other, only to receive nothing in the end.

Is life a joke? I wish.

Blessings and more blessings.

I received this book from a dear dear friend of mine, Melissa, a few days ago.

And it is the most precious thing EVER! =) ( omg its so good I can't seem to put it down )

Thank you Meli weli , for being so generous in giving me your 'favourite-est' book! I know it is difficult to give the things we find so precious away, but your willingness to share the joy you find in it with me, truly is so touching!


Someone sent me this, and it made me smile.

" A woman has strength that amazes men.

She can handle trouble and carry heavy burdens.

She holds happiness and love.

She smiles when she feels like screaming.

She sings when she feels like crying,

cries when she's happy,

and laughs when she's afraid.

Her love is unconditional!

There is only one thing wrong with her,

She sometimes forgets what she's worth. "


I hope this inspires girls out there, as it did me.

Have a good ( erm rest of the day ) peeps! =)